New job started January 6. After HR onboarding, I was assigned to a project that had a deadline by the end of the week. The week after, I was assigned to another project that had a deadline within the week as well. I felt tired and drained.
I'm so fucking pissed off. Me planning my time very carefully. Looking my watch every now and then just so I maximize my weekend. Then, someone making me do stuff for them. Fuck off. π‘
I noticed that people open up to me with their traumas and their sadness. Most of my flings do that even in the early stages. It drains me most of the time. I decided to learn techniques as to how to shield and cleanse myself. I am convinced that I have a healer energy or aura.π€£
I was the type who would sing you a song out of nowhere (even when we are just walking in the streets).
But after that person, something within me died. Now, it's so hard to even hum a melody for another person. π
It's the second time someone told me he prefers a clean cut hairstyle compared to my now long hair and messy look.
I know I look better in a clean look. I just want to be like this at this time. I'm gonna color my hair as well. π