I h/c that his injury was much more severe than “just” losing his leg. Perforated bowel requiring a temporary ileostomy, almost lost a testicle, relearning how to walk, issues adjusting to a prosthesis, etc. He deeply relates to patients with life-changing traumatic injuries.
on a serious note, i think he has frozen leftovers of the last meal his wife made inside his freezer, and he can never bring himself to part with them because it's the last piece of her cooking that he has
jack abbot saying “this can stay off the books, I don’t need the paperwork from the hospital or the police department” feels a lot like a more sanitized version of “I need to be able to keep harming myself without people knowing so they don’t try and stop me”