I became a father yesterday.
My wife did this without an epidural. I watched her suffer in ways I will never fully comprehend, carrying a weight I could not share no matter how I tried. For nine months, I was present but powerless.
Pregnancy forced me to confront something modern life constantly tries to erase: you must wait. Painfully. Excruciatingly. There are no shortcuts to life. No hacks. No optimizations. Just time, and flesh, and blood.
Women bear the disproportionate burden of bringing life into the world. I still don’t fully understand why. Only that it’s true, and profound, and humbling beyond words.
I witnessed pain in its rawest form. À suffering that creates. That’s the poetry of it. Imperfect, brutal, but so precisely orchestrated that it cannot be coincidence. I saw Eden play out; the curse and the promise, together in one body.
There is no way you witness how life begins and conclude this is random. No way you watch a body break itself open to bring forth another person and think we are here by accident, that existence is a cosmic joke. The process is too terrible, too sacred, too exactly what it needs to be.
If everyone began life by witnessing a full pregnancy and labour, we would understand the weight of human existence differently. We participate in it, but we do so as children and forget. This is the passage. The one that strips away pretense and forces you to reckon with the fact that we are here for something.
I always assumed fatherhood would arrive in my thirties, after I’d figured myself out as robustly as I imagined I’d want, after life had settled. Instead, it showed up at 27. No warning. No badge of readiness. Just reality.
Two things haunted me throughout these nine months.
The first: What is a father?
For nine months, you wait for someone you do not know. You count weeks, feel kicks, watch your wife’s body transform and suffer, but the person at the center remains a mystery. I kept asking my wife, half-joking: Who the hell is this guy? He could be anyone.
That realization struck me harder than expected: the sheer nothingness of human fatherhood at the start. You don’t author a child. You don’t summon him by will. You are present, but not primary.
And that’s when it became clear.
There is a greater Father.
One who was with him in the womb when I was not.
One who willed him, shaped him, knit him together before I ever felt useful.
One who knew him before he was visible, before he was named, before he was handed to me.
Pregnancy made that impossible to ignore. It stripped me of the illusion of control.
A child is not a possession. He is a gift. And like all real gifts, he comes from Someone higher.
I’ve been able to slowly understand that parenting is not ownership. It’s stewardship. Helping this little man discover his real Father. The One who loved him before the foundations of the world.
And more than that, parenting is trust.
Trusting that the same God who found me in my confusion and chaos will find him too.
Trusting that I don’t have to be the savior to be a good father.
Trusting that my role is presence, love, discipline, humility. Not replacement.
I understand I am not the source. I am a signpost.
And strangely, that is very freeing. Because it means I don’t have to pretend to be God. I just have to be faithful.
So help me God.
Smart meters
Smart cars
Smart phones
Smart cities
Smart homes
The word "SMART" refers to "self-
monitoring, analysis, and reporting technology."
A smart illusion of safety and convenience, but actually it's about tricking us into digital control and surveillance.
If I was president I would ban:
Mammograms
Teflon pans
Diet soda
Income tax
Property tax
Statins
Pesticides
Vaccines
Birth control
Chemotherapy
Government funding to Israel
Artificial fragrances
Weather modification
Toxic sunscreens
Artificial sweeteners
Polyester underwear
5G towers
Pornography
LED streetlights
Mosquito fogging
Central banks
Smart meters
Chemical cleaners
Fluoride
ADHD medication
Seed oils
Bottled water in plastic
High fructose corn syrup
Factory farmed meat
Synthetic preservatives
Wireless headphones
Alcohol
Enriched flour
Monocrop farming
Refined salt
Hospitals without windows
School bells
Smart refrigerators
C-sections
Daylight savings time
Vaccination records
Internet connected thermostats
Labor induction drugs
Synthetic fertilizers
The best part is that everyone would be too healthy to notice that any of these are missing.
John Paul Rice, former producer for ''The Hunger Games'' (a film that features human ''hunting parties'' predictive programming) shares his experience with Hollywood pedophiles.
The real issue
Biblical Israel is not the modern nation state founded in 1948
They don’t want you to know this so you keep sending a foreign country billions
I NEVER share footage my private family life or my kids but this is important for parents to see.
@peppapig why do you think it’s necessary that a 4 year old girl watch this?
Boycott Peppa Pig along with Netflix.
I have NEVER seen this many people at a single event.
Not for the Super Bowl. Not for the Daytona 500. But for CHARLIE KIRK.
AMERICA is rallying together! 🇺🇸❤️
[RG911Team] It took most Americans years to start questioning 9/11.
It took them months to question Covid-19.
It took weeks to question October 7 in Gaza.
And it took days to start questioning the murder of Charlie Kirk.
The era of blindly trusting authority is over.
Charlie Kirk invited me to speak at Amfest a few weeks ago before he was martyred.
This was after I called for AIPAC to register under FARA and said that the nuclear armed secular government of Israel was committing genocide in Gaza and killing innocent children, Christians, and people.
He asked if I wanted to debate about AIPAC but made it clear NOT against him.
He said “we”, him - TPUSA, would do whatever I want on the issue.
If you don’t know who to believe, between Bibi Netanyahu (a foreign country’s leader) or Charlie’s personal friends Candace Owens and Tucker Carlson, I’m posting my last text message with Charlie.
Believe Candace Owens and Tucker Carlson.
And at the same time always remember:
1. Charlie Kirk is an American Christian.
2. Charlie Kirk is a devoted loving husband and father.
3. Charlie Kirk is a Christian movement leader, a giant in American history.
4. Charlie Kirk is a Christian martyr for Jesus Christ.
5. Charlie Kirk is a Free Speech warrior and was committed to non-violent debate.
Do not allow a foreign country, foreign agents, and another religion tell you about Charlie Kirk.
And I hope a foreign country and foreign agents and another religion does not take over Christian Patriotic Turning Point USA.