Elli Mac

a human being on planet earth.

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

i love her so much

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

@tedcruz fuck you you useless piece of shit

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

@instagram my app is completely not working and I can't even send a bug report. none of the help articles have been helpful.

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

@frickingneena who the fuck is this person

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

@ravenscimaven this sounds horrifying. thank you for sharing. i have not heard much about these psychiatric symptoms post-COVID. it feels like we learn something new about the impact of this virus everyday..

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

@frickingneena delete it!!!!!!! i'm leaving and i don't want to see either of us here again!! lol

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

logged onto this app to be immediately reminded of why i left! good bye again

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

@_akuaaa also, if someone is sharing on a public platform that they experienced post-COVID psychosis, it stands to reason that they are open to sharing, at least in some detail, about the experience, which is something i would like to be aware of as a neighbor to ppl recovering from COVID

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

@_akuaaa @ravenscimaven she absolutely does and i did not ask for details. she answered my question, thanks!

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

i always joke that i am controversial but it seems to be coming true sorry to offend i guess ??

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

got kind of sad when i realized that another near stranger from college I occasionally interacted with has blocked me on social media and then I remembered my own sister has me blocked on here and idk I'm just not sure my rejection sensitive ass needs to be out here anymore

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

my favorite one today was "me and my girlfriend talk about this a lot. she's southern and sometimes she'll say something technically grammatically incorrect and she always says 'does it matter? as long as you know what im talking about' and she's right." 😂

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

one of my favorite things abt WFH is overhearing all the times thomas says something about me to his coworkers

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

absolutely insane that a month ago I was hopping out of bed at 6 am, getting fully dressed and accessorizing, excitedly cleaning my house, and reading a chapter of a book before 10 am and now I can barely do the getting out of bed part.

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

@frickingneena 😭😭😭 its so wild to crave stability and then when I have it my brain just finds a new way to go insane

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

it is hilarious how i rly thought i had depression beat it doesn't make sense!!! i put all the pieces of my life together in a new way that seemed to be working and i STILL get the blues???

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

@frickingneena yea I'm just not sure. I can't identify a trigger other than just settling in? like there's less novelty and excitement now. I think I just have to move like every 6 months for the rest of my life 😭

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

but its still better i think? the suicidal ideation is not an intense so far. i have new language and communication skills for my support system. i am trying. i am sober. i just want my rose colored glasses back!!!

[Elli Mac @ceetee95]

but here we are again. i refuse to accept the bipolar diagnosis and the medication bc i still firmly believe that mental health care in the US is gobbledygook but it really does feel like a switch has flipped, like i'm coming off a high, like i lost something and can't find it!