“We were nineteen the first time we—”
“Oh,” Shane said. “I thought the question was the first time we felt, um, sparks.” His ears were bright red and Ilya wanted to bite them.
“Yes,” Ilya said. His voice has gone soft, but he didn’t care. “Eighteen then. That’s right.”
esp noticing that ilya used papa w alexei too even in the beginning like… the dichotomy of loving someone who views love as a weakness until he forgets who you are entirely
saw someone pointed out that ilya referred to his dad as father for the most part in the beginning but started calling him papa when his health was declining and im not sure how im supposed to deal with that information