If choosing yourself for your own well-being, even just once, makes people see you as selfish, disrespectful, and disappointing, then what's the point of living?
@WULFRIC951 The intro to their series back then was such a banger, I could never skip it before the actual episode lol. But for me, it was their acting and chemistry that really got me hooked and made me watch every series they were in, aside from other BL series during the pandemic.
i think long-term stress changes people quietly. you become less expressive, less excited, more tired, more detached, until one day you barely recognize the version of yourself that existed before survival mode.