spiffy ✰ ◡̈ ♫ ⌬

18, he him | 5’ 2 | lbmi 15.5 | cbmi FAT | AN | Pre-med student | non shedtwt dni!!!!

[spiffy ✰ ◡̈ ♫ ⌬ @ch3miCalllllss]

My pinned!! :D 🫧

About me:

18, he, I really like some stuff, here’s my favorite stuff in this collage below:

Also, diagnosed autism, apologies if I come off awkward. I try my best :]

I wanna be a doctor!! (toxicologist or infectious disease specialist?)

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9000 mg propranolol and antiemetic. If I don’t update, I’m dead.

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Last meal

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@bloodythingg Rude. Typing quirks are in the DSM diagnostic criteria for PTSD. They can’t control it. 😒

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It’s a very strange feeling when you know you’re going to die soon. And it’s isolating too, when no one else knows that but you.

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Tw SH

[℮ @carmilla_doll]

bank account down
grades down
mental health down
bmi up

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Idk why my heart is beating this fast from sitting down and eating. I’m trembling and I feel it pounding in my chest.

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I am extremely sad

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TW SH
Am I cooked 😭 it’s been 3 days why is it looking like that !? The one on the right is healing well but the two on the left????! It doesn’t hurt at all tho.

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@myskinnywish988 They did a weight exposure bc it would „help prevent a relapse” (??) i expected to be 107-112, saw 120. I was sobbing, and my therapist looked at me blankly and provided no emotional support.

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@myskinnywish988 I was 98 lbs pre ED, then I was 85 lbs and they made me gain to 120 in the span of 4 months :(

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@ashervents Thanks bro I’m here for u too <3

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Fuck my life, still here

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Im so scarred

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That weird thing is to crush the pills btw.

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Gonna leave soon. Gonna uber to the woods

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tw SI

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I think I’m doing it tomorrow