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My life is nothing but a series of cringe

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2026 is the year that insists on sucking no matter what I do

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Why has it been feeling lately like everyone is moving on with their life without me

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It’s been years since I’ve had a Eid like this. Kinda thought this was in the past for me

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I’m starting to recognize when my head is just messing with me

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He also seems to think I have “a heavy level of sadness”. This can’t be good

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My therapist keeps telling me I’m depressed but I didn’t think I was depressed. Am I depressed? Damn

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I am definitely in my sad girl era, not a good way to start 29

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What am I even doing

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God how I wish that would’ve turned out differently

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I can’t help but think of how different everything would be right now if I had just held back

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If you feel like you need to ask for kindness in a relationship then you should walk away

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Funny how the only time I’ve been disrespected by men has been when I’ve talked to men from my country

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Just got gaslit by a man for the first time ever. So this is what gaslighting is

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Do I gaslight myself into believing everything is fine

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And where this is going, can’t tell if he’s gonna come back and break things off for sure or if he’s going to be incredibly compassionate and give me what I’m looking for

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He’s consuming too much of my mind

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I am responsible for what I put out into the world but I am not responsible for how others receive it

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Don’t get your hopes up

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I felt like there was something performative about him

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You’re only a kind person when your kindness is not selective