my heart never has to break like this again, that I never have to survive something like this again. I'll be praying for peace...real peace, the kind that let's me breathe without fighting for it. I deserve a year that doesn't hurt.
The pain of losing your pet🐈 is unbearable.💔
I won’t end this year pretending everything was fine. I lost a piece of myself that I'll never get back, and I'm not forcing a smile like it didn't change me. So no...I won’t be saying that "2026 is gonna be my year". I'll be praying that I recover next year, that my heart..(1/2)
Behind every "I don't want to marry" is a girl quietly battling fears. Not because she hates loves- but because she's scared she won't receive the kind she truly deserves. What if she ends up with someone who never really sees her? What if love feels like duty instead of choice?
Everyone asks me, "Don't you want someone?" And I laugh, Because ofc I do.I want love so bad that it aches. I want to be held, to be seen, to be choosen. But the second someone gets close, I flinch. I overthink, shut down, pull back. I find reasons to run, too soon, too intense.
I convince myself that they'll leave me, so before them leaving me I leave first. Then I sit alone wondering why i keep doing this. I say I want connection, but build walls like I am under attack. It's not that I don't want love. I’m just scared of being known.
Its like someone has thrown me into a never ending cycle of “accept whatever the life is throwing at you” , its not like I am scared or I am not accepting. Its just, I am tired of waiting for this loop to finally end.