I cant sleep. I keep on geting nightmares of stuff i cant control. I know i have to continue alone bit im terrified of taking a step and doing something wrong. Cuz i know theres something wrong with me and i know i shouldn't blame fully my self. But why must i always walk alone?
I… should go to sleep. Tomorrow is hospital day. Or today … i rambled enough im sorry for that . I promise iwouldnt die . So i got to keep fighting no? I know i am gonna get a full revision again. Ive been more foggy than usual . Small memory lost too. And i hate it