Sometimes I wish someone would be supportive of the fact that I want to die but I can't talk to anybody cause I'm tired of attempts at dissuading me.
That life is precious and things get better & all that bullshit.
I've wanted to end it since I was 7 & never once changed my mind
My mom entered without knocking as I was sitting on the railing of balcony to make myself more confortable with the idea of throwing myself and she's been unbearable since.
God I was I wish my kms attempt would work instead of being only successful at useless self harming
Huge lesson, and one that hits hard when you finally realize it. Giving so much of yourself to people who wouldn’t do the same? It drains you. It’s like pouring your energy into a well that never fills up. You keep hoping they’ll match your effort, but some people just take and take without ever giving back.
This month learning that boundary—knowing when to pull back and protect your own energy—is a game changer. It’s not about being cold or selfish; it’s about valuing yourself enough to stop giving away parts of you to people who don’t appreciate them. Reciprocity is key, and you deserve to have people in your life who lift you up just as much as you do for them.
It’s a tough lesson, but once you learn it, you start to attract relationships that are balanced and healthy, where the give and take flows naturally. Protect your energy, because you’re worth it.
Rape scene /
These two panels are from separate moments in time but they resonate a lot with me. Nana is not stupid, she’s a traumatized woman who was groomed while still a child to accept mediocre and abusive men as her standard.
I just counted that from August 9th to today, I had a total of 3 free days.
So I worked ~280 hours in 1 month.
An experience from which I derived: stress, back hurting, isolation, mental breakdowns, stress, suicidal ideation, repression, stress and +1000€.
It's joever at least