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*✧𐄙०୨୧˚ 28 | she/her | bulimia/arfid/ocd | follows allspo | high sw | TW ed/drug/sui/sa mentions *୨୧⁺˚०𐄙

[VIOLET ୨୧ @chasingdewdrops]

Follow me @chasingdewdrops 🫶🏻

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my boyfriend is so nice and loves me so much, im so lucky omg

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looks different but it always feels the same

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im too depressed to eat but if i dont pick smth ill end up binging later... i hate all these fucking spirals my mind is trapped in

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ive been in the same fucking suicidal loop for over ten years now. sometimes i wish i didnt the world was so beautiful. i dont want to miss out, but ive been so miserable for so long that i really dont believe theres anything else for me

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im flaring up again n cant walk bc i hurt my knee and ankle, my stomach hurts so bad when i eat and ive had a migraine for like two days now. no one cares and i guess i just need to vent. i feel like im just gonna feel a tiny bit worse until i just drop dead some day. fuck this

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i got really hurt today :( im scared i broke a bone and i have no way to check but my leg hurts so bad

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i guess i have nothing left to say

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too sad to even be dramatic about it, just fucking kill me. thers no point

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thisisacryforhelp.mp3

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im so tired of being invisible, i just wish i fucking mattered to anybody at all

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on monday there were fleas in my house
tuesday i got laid off
wednesday i got a chronic pain flare up
thursday i threw up my pills
friday i got the flu
but no worries, today i got my period bc clearlyyyy this week was too easy 🫩

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I JUST LOST MY FUCKING JOBBBBBB GREAAAAT im so fucking glad i stayed alive for this YAY

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lmao the way that having an empty funeral is genuinely keeping me alive out of embarrassment

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theres no one left to even write a note to. this is so fucking pathetic

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i got a rash on my face from crying all day

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lmfao not the suicide hotline hanging up on me. this is beyond pathetic

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how it feels scrolling edtwt trying to retrigger a honeymoon phase

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im in so much fuckng pain im gonna lose my mind

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completely fucking hopeless