Poahksikakii

Young, Blackfoot, and passionate. Aspiring educator. Momma and partner. Anemic and dehydrated. She/Her. Talented multitasker at struggling.

[Poahksikakii @cheeeer_noelle]

Tia Lynn Blood
Remember her name, remember her.

She was a loving and devoted; mother, wife, daughter, sister, and in general an amazing person who radiated warmth and love.

Tia was loved by all who had the chance to know her and everyone was drawn to her wherever she went.

[Poahksikakii @cheeeer_noelle]

You’d think when it comes to encouragement and threats of shooting on campus, more would be done about it.

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Fired professor from UofL encourages someone going “postal” at the University of Lethbridge to put the “fear of god into these people” referring to professors and student complainants against him.

But the University hasn’t addressed it to students?

[Poahksikakii @cheeeer_noelle]

People ask me to do hood rat shit with them

Forgetting I’m mentally unstable.

I literally rammed into someone’s truck on purpose, flipped a shitty, then cut them off and got out of my vehicle screaming.

Do not ask me unless you’re ready for the follow through

[Poahksikakii @cheeeer_noelle]

When my partner and I got married, his mom gifted me a dagger. It’s a Scottish custom.

She laughed that she finally brought me to tears it only took gifting me a knife 😂

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I have the depression, my antipsychotics make me gain weight, making me more bleh

I should just ditch the meds…. Hoh just really feeling manic fok lmao

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I just want wheat!! I want to cry into a bag of flour. Is that too much to ask for?

[Poahksikakii @cheeeer_noelle]

I’m so heartbroken and I have no one to just be with about it.

I’m so tired of shitty people.
And I can’t even cry and have wheat about it. Being sad and eating anything is a privilege I took for granted. Ffs.

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https://t.co/QcoQpq1M0w

This is technically illegal. Cardston resides on reserve land due to a 90 year lease, doing this means they’re selling alcohol on reserve land.

But let’s just forget about that then.

[Poahksikakii @cheeeer_noelle]

I like to think of my newly developed allergy to wheat as a strength.

My body is just that sacred, tryna force me into a traditional diet
You ever get hives on your entire body? Only took me a month to finally figure out why every waking moment was hell. Fucking wheat man

[Poahksikakii @cheeeer_noelle]

Fuck academia.

I hate having to get a degree to work in a larger capacity. Academia is Indigenous trauma porn

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If I ever used “Ozzy’s wife” as my descriptor, know it is a cry for help because that shit gives me the biggest ick

I am never an extension of someone.

[Poahksikakii @cheeeer_noelle]

Send love to your child’s teachers and EA’s. I’m burnt tf out.

Early childhood education teachers and EAs… I applaud you all. My first year as a K5 EA and I’m exhausted. Idk how y’all been doing this 😅

[Poahksikakii @cheeeer_noelle]

This shit is so hard but I’m doing it ❤️

If I didn’t go to the psych ward I wouldn’t have received help in the way I needed, the meds I didn’t know I needed.

I asked my doctor for a psychiatric referral a year ago. He said no. Don’t listen to your family doctor.

[Poahksikakii @cheeeer_noelle]

I’ve been struggling

But yesterday I was able to have one beer and not completely fall off my sobriety.

100% abstinent from alcohol and drugs doesn’t work for me with my sobriety. To come to this point to have a drink and not go home to drink …

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Won’t let us, including my children, see the child we helped raise and my babies took as a sister since over a year and a half, yet has the audacity to sing with my family.

Sing knowing how much my Grandpa and Uncle meant to me, the audacity to sing with my family.

Fuck people

[Poahksikakii @cheeeer_noelle]

My partner has Randy Travis blasted, teaching our 7 year old to dance

🥰

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It’s crazy to think 2 months ago I was in the psych ward and how constant my suicidal ideation was prior.
Two months on increased dose and an additional medication has helped so much.

How the fuck did I think the constant ideation was normal?!

[Poahksikakii @cheeeer_noelle]

My aunties keep me sane ❤️

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My favourite thing to do is tell adults the unique things about their child.

I love when daycare or school tells me stuff about my babies ❤️ the specific things that make them who they are.

I love sharing that with care providers, these kids cute af 🥰

[Poahksikakii @cheeeer_noelle]

I’m the kind of petty that would write a public status about someone and unblock them so they can see it.

Too bad it has to be about my own grandma. Ffs 🤦🏽‍♀️