cello marie

wuhluhwuh forever babie 🏳️‍🌈 | she/her

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

Romanticizing the hell out of a bad situation to survive ☺️

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

having vivid make out sesh daydreams again, ovulation here we gowwwwst (give me a woman please)

[Marie🧚 @glitchu__]

Just stalked my own instagram archive & forgot I lived all those eras 😭😭😭 Miss you sis. You had so much fun.

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

this could be temporary but at least i got a little reprieve from the usual spiral 😁

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

it's fascinating how my brain just decided not to feed the loneliness anymore. i was eating on my bed earlier and felt the "oh this is sad, this is lonely" wave but my inner thoughts responded na would i really want to eat with people or make convo with randos?

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

but this would mean I'd be sacrificing my relationships again 🥲 it's ok thooo it's not yet set in stone anyway 😗

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

if my leyte thing is a success, i might do it every couple of months sa diff cities 🤔 i feel so kalma here sa cebu and comfy, i need a little bit of thrill 😆

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

need to get my sleeo sched backkkkk 🥲

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

i keep forgetting i really need to eat properly not just 1x a day so i dont spend so much money on food jesusss maria

[Seth @fiercepatricks]

It’s not just a rainbow, it’s a symbol of pride, hope and security. Happy pride🏳️‍🌈

[iza @izamamaa]

“nobody coming to save you also implies

no one is coming to stop you”

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

yes but it's our responsibility to get out of that too. once you accept that, it becomes freeing. the narrative transcends from "why me" to "how do i live with this and not let it affect my entire life".

[​𝐥𝐲𝐫𝐚 @sunnkssdseraph]

When you are mentally disturbed, you don't always act kind, you get irritated easily. Your patience started to fade. You speak rudely sometimes, not because you want to, but because your heart is tired of holding too much. You push people away, and they call it bad behaviour. they see anger, but only you know the truth. It's not anger, it's mental exhaustion. a mind crowded with unsaid words slowly turning into sadness. Emotions become too heavy to carry, too painful to explain, and all you're doing is trying to survive the noise inside.

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

ive been having really intense dejavu all day jesusszz what is this 😭

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

I'm listening to the Shred Sisters by Betsy Lerner ba. 2 chapters in and it's making me realise that I really cant have children if I'm still unstable.

They don't deserve a life lived like glass children just because their mother is can't control her shit. :(((

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

sometimes i forget about how good it is just to spill over here hahaha i really miss just tweeting whatever and moving on with my day 😂

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

i MIGHT not go back to the dating apps again pero it's really funny noh na you just outgrow something and not even worry about not finding anyone anymore 🤘

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

ooooop

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

my first legit credit card just got rerouted back to sender HAHAHAHAHA and i can't appeal kay walay BPI today, i should really take this as a sign 😭

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

my friends and i really went from wanting to go into club/bar business to a wellness studio x cafe one huh hahahaha

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

im overly romanticising my upcoming retreat in my head and yeah i'll probably get bored after a week of doing absolutely nothing PERO i've been wanting to pick up either writing fiction or create a literary criticism on my current read (or both) so we'll see how it turns out

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

hope after the anxiety over this is gone na i'd be more good at managing my daily spend 😵 i think i should really consider renting na jud kay most gasto is from food 😭

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

trying to track my expenses ☺️ started last thurs ☺️ and I've almost spent 10k since then ☺️ wtf ☺️

[cello marie @cheeeeyoo]

actually ☺️ it's now at 11k ☺️