my unhealthy defense mechanism is to shut down and stop talking if i feel like i’m being misunderstood or disrespected. i don’t like repeating myself and i don’t like the feeling like I’m not being heard
Nobody is easy to be with, we all come with something. So when you meet someone who’s actually patient enough to understand you and grow with you, don’t let your ego or pride mess that up.
Not everybody is gonna keep choosing you through your phases, your moods, your healing… that kind of real is rare. And it’s not about being perfect, it’s about being willing. Remember that
Love after 25 is different.
You’re not looking for sparks. You’re looking for stability, kindness and shared goals. You’ve outgrown games and butterflies.
You’re craving peace, emotional safety, and someone whose future aligns with yours.
I don't even tell people that im hurting anymore. Not my family, not my friends, not my closest people.
Nobody. I cry to myself and then pick myself up. Then go about life like I'm completely okay. No matter how much I need someone, i just don't anymore.
“But you survived” I disassociate, like a lot. My heart drops when someone raises their voice. I shut down very easily. I'm far too observant. I always feel like a burden. I isolate often. But yeah, sure, I guess I survived.
I get jealous really easily but not like an angry vengeful jealous, more like a really sad lonely jealous because everybody likes everybody more than they like me and I really really don't blame them
Fuck sleeping together. Real question is can you still love me when I’m three weeks deep into a depressive episode. Constantly overthinking. When I’m texting you 20 times asking you for reassurance or when I’m crying about things?