clara🪻

22. former ana, recovered and relapsed x4, currently excersise addict

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

i was gone during the summer, i had to work an insane job and had a shit time honestly

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

hi are my mooties still on here?

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

@Clownbabydoll right!! especially when they know the person has an ed too??

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

my family triggers me into oblivion… like how are they unaware of this😭 isn’t it just common sense to NOT comment on what i eat?? i can’t wait to go home

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

weirdest ed symptom gotta be feeling triggered by having energy and feeling good😭

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

@ringoesforit Gm!! unfortunately i’m working today😫 wbu?

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

No bc… i’m constantly switching between
- no lunch (best ana😻)
- piece of chocolate for lunch (back to my old junkorexic ways)
- high protein for lunch (gym bro era)
- healthy salad (semi recov ig/med student in me)
and i can’t choose which direction it’s making me go insane

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

every ten minutes every single day my mind switches between
- i'm gonna focus on running so i can increase my intake a bit and but also stay skinny
- i'm gonna continue strength training bc i will look toned
- idc about exercise i will just starve
AND IT IS DRIVING ME INSANE

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

@ringoesforit i'm so happy for you that's amazing!!!<333

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

@casketprinces YES like i wake up so skinny the day after idk how that’s even possible 😭🙏

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

okay fuck it im locking in fr tomorrow, idgaf about the gym im just gonna starve. i also have to walk 20k steps at work everyday lets goooo

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

@sw_ed_strggls det kämpas ✊😔

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

once again in a five million calorie surplus bc of straight up alcohol ✊😔 my only vice fr

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

@prettyintinee like yes smoking is bad but the way this is worded i fr though this was about crack 😭

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

should i stop countring calories and try the liv sm1th propaganda?😭

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

okay i’m getting worse😃 can’t stand my body

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

PLEASE HELP SHOULD I RECOVER OR GET WORSE I'M STUCK IN A LIMBO

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

like i want to recover bc i have a both physically and psychologically demanding work that needs my full attention but also... when i look in the mirror i no longer gaf about that

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

PLEASE HELP SHOULD I RECOVER OR GET WORSE I'M STUCK IN A LIMBO

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

okay i’m back from my trip, time to lock in at the gym again

[clara🪻 @cherrywater0]

@suliastar real unfortunately