something something here about self-harming and suicide ideation but let out on another individual instead because of learned violent behaviors and emotional dysregulation. uuu....
thinking about how olivia's favored place to handle and touch gwen is her insides. your family is so broken that you crave codependency and intimacy but you've only ever understood it through violence. you want to be inside of her, become one, return to the womb again...
olivia park foot fetish is great but i also think it just comes from an overarching obsession for every part of gwen to be hers and olivia has touched all of it. her mouth and her hands and her feet and her guts and the inside of her throat...
i wonder if olivia could even perceive the cold, robotic look in gwen's eyes when she's about to kill someone in coldblood and in this moment you mean nothing to her. or if olivia is so far gone that she will always see gwen as a scared thing in need of her presence
i wonder if gwen will ever try to kill olivia (or has attempted to)... she grasped andi in rage while hallucinating her as olivia but we never get to see what she intended to do... would she be able to carry through with it? or would she crumble at the last second...
the suit seems to also give her boosted strength capacities as well as maybe life support ? considering she's wearing a helmet and the condition we saw her in her room. the sculpting of the suit/dress makes her look younger as well... augh.
in olivia's public appearances she's often dressed in bulkier clothes to make herself seem bigger / more imposing when reality she has a fairly frail figure... the hair horns are her most distinguishable feature and they're dragon sharp but this is also a choice. +
both of them lash out in sudden anger at their abusers and situations that replicate their abuse. i wonder if olivia was ever as angry at gwen when she tore her up, like how she switched from tenderness to rage with arthur.
thinking about the almost apathetic expressions gwen and olivia wear even when interacting with each other like they are both so hollow and numb and trapped in this dysfunctional cycle (or well, olivia is keeping gwen caged). +
olivia perpetuates learned violence from witnessing/potentially being a victim of orville's violence but you have to wonder what other behaviors and forms of abuse she internalized as well. abusers and victims who become abusers can be reflections of each other in the worst ways