The Bible is so clear on how important it is to never look back. Not at an old position, an old ex, an old friendship, or even old ways that God has brought you out of. There are many people in the Bible but in clear words, God tells us to "remember Lot's wife"; who turned into a pillar of salt! Stuck in time. I pray that when you're tempted to "go back", the spirit of our living & loving God reminds you that you have to much to look forward to.
Before you sleep, look at Proverbs 16:9 it says, We can make our plans but the Lord determines our steps. God has cancelled plans to save your life. He sent you the other direction to avoid danger. He fights your seen & unseen battles. Trust in God, His plan is better than yours
Before you sleep, ask God to give you grace during the waiting period. Think about it like a waiting room, and know that God is never late. God sees and hears your prayers and He will heal, provide, lead, and save. While you wait, seek His face, read the word and trust in God.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres - 1 Corinthians 13
Sending comforting energy to anyone and everyone who is struggling during what is supposed to be a season of love, comfort and abundance. Better will come to you.