it’s nice to hear you and see you and feel you again but is it the same? is it the same if i can’t call you my girl? is the same if i can’t tell you how much i love you and how i see you in everything i love? maybe how we behave is the same but the comfort of being yours is gone
either she’s rlly bad at flirting or she doesn’t want me and she’s just pretending she does to make me feel better and until she finds someone she actually likes guys i’m crazy
bpd so weird cuz why am i chilling rn im jusr content asf like nobody touching me i’m uoset?? no dawg i’m
so nonchalant and chill and casual like i can be like cool effortless hot gay woman
i think i’m just learning to cope w not being her person even if it’s been like months, i still care so much about her and i’m happy i get to kiss her and stuff it just hurts to not be her girl anymore
one last thing before i log out fr; long story short i’m just glad me and her are friends again, i think no contact would make me feel 100x worse even though ppl would probably say just to do that. I missed having her in my life even if it’s hard still sometimes