fighting for my recovery isn’t just about gaining back my nerve function that enables me to feel and move, but it’s also fighting to get my life back, my privacy back, my freedom back. #transversemyelitis
A safety panel of the European drug regulator on Friday recommended adding a rare spinal inflammation called transverse myelitis as a side effect of AstraZeneca's COVID-19 vaccine. https://t.co/aK5dUirwE9
it’s the journey after, in the recovery process that seemingly never ending. the agonizing days that turn into months while you work to get better everyday but progress feels so damn slow. add in the looming question of ‘is this as far as i could recover?’ #transversemyelitis
the hardest part ain’t the excruciating burning pain that was felt at the beginning that left me paralyzed, nor was the first few weeks spent in hospital being poked around, given various medications, and MRIs.
amidst all of this recovery journey, one thing that i find comforting is reading on novels that went through something similar. it gives my bottled up frustration and silent battles a voice to be heard and to be understood. #ChronicIllness#transversemyelitis
just as i was starting to finally learn how to dream and chase it, i lost all sense of normalcy and hit the rock bottom without knowing what’s possible and how far could i even get back up. #ChronicIllness#transversemyelitis
Acknowledging what hurts and uncomfortable, whats lacking and what hasn’t been improving enough do not equal to not being grateful for how far one has come. though frankly, there’s a thin line in between lol #transversemyelitis#chronicillness
we often forget so easily to extend some love and compassion towards ourselves.
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a kind reminder to not be too harsh on ourselves and to validate our feelings, take a little break. it’s okay to not be strong all the damn time🥰 #ChiaraTransverseMyelitisJourney
had a mental breakdown this morning. my body ache, my back radiated so much heat, everything feels overwhelming, frustrating, and tiring. it’s been 25 days battling through #transversemyelitis
a voice in my head just kept saying one thing: “i’m tired”
“don’t you think it’s valid and normal to feel tired and exhausted through the battle? would you have tell them that they’re weak and make them feel in the wrong?”
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“it’s valid and no I wouldn’t”, I’d usually answered.
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“then why don’t you allow yourself to feel tired too?”