This is free advice from an expensive psychologist. If you’re an anxious person, do everything for fun. Go to a job interview for fun. Submit documents for fun. Start a blog for fun. Anxiety feeds on importance. Don’t make everything a matter of life and death.
Someone who just retired from international football (reducing the source of goals) is the one desperate to reach 1,000 goals?
This has gone beyond delusional, it is now paranoia.
someone once said that we should treat our interests as seasons that can be revisited, but prioritised in the moment of intense fascination, and not as something we must continue to do all the time