had sex with someone new several months after the split and i went to cry in the bathroom for several minutes not out of happiness but because this just felt wrong and uncomfortable
@fr4ilbugs it is such a specific type of pain. everyone around you will give you advice that doesn't really apply to the situation cos they're convinced it's basic heartbreak and you're just doing too much and victimising yourself all while your head feels like it's being blown open eachday
ive always had a sick fantasy, to be loved to the point of obsession. i want someone to be consumed by me, to crave me, adore me, and fear losing me. i want to be their weakness, their everything, and have all their love belong to me. forever and always.
@drunkas4k it's nuanced honestly. there are some things you shouldn't even utter even if they do like you
in this case it's best to let them initiate than you saying anything at all
reminds me of this cute moment when i hooked up with someone and instead of just asking me again she texted me right there in person as we were cuddling and both pressing phone