@durje666 -a reason myself. the only reason im alive is because im too scared to die. Ive already conceded that id hate myself and my life forever but it makes me angry at myself to be so incapable of helping anyone else. ive made it about myself again sorry nvm
@durje666 after the first month you'll get less like now i get half of that every month but its something even though i find it humiliating that ive commodified myself. I cant really give you a reason to "keep going" that doesnt sound like an annoying platitude because I dont really have-
@averageenigga I literally can't I start feeling queasy and disgusting I couldn't even focus on the show I was looking at shinji and thinking to myself what if I start wanting to groom him, mind you I'm not even attracted to men