riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt!

🎀 lbmi 12.5 ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ cbmi 15.5 🍰 ₍ᐢっ ̫ ʚ̴̶̷̥̀ ᐢ₎ ⊹ ࣪ ⋆ ₊˚. ⊹ ࣪˖ 一番可愛い天使になりたい ꒰ঌ( *´꒳`* )໒꒱ ❤️‍🩹 forced sh recovery 💢💉⊹ ࣪ ⋆ ifb let's be moots ! 💕🌸

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

.+: ｡🐾 riri's intro!!

♡ not new just relapsing after forced recov ૮꒰◞ ˕ ◟ ྀི꒱ა
♡ an-r 16 she/her 160cm
♡ lw: 31 cw: 41 ugw: 29?
♡ i love vocaloid, animanga, pjsk, nso, ddlc
♡ clean w sh rn but if i'll post sh i'll censor!
↻/♡ to be moots!! :3
#shedtwt #edtwt #shtwt

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

@Amakoen when i cut for the first time i was desperate and tried every knife i found in the kitchen i felt like a cringe gacha life oc lol all were so dull even w big pressure i got only tiny cat scratches (ó﹏ò｡) a day after that mom bought a brand new knife and i got deep styros w it!

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

why can't i just go die?! i don't deserve to live, i am too disgusting to be alive and i could die so easily. but i don't want to die, i want to experience the life i always wanted, i wasted my whole life being miserable... i just want to be happy for once but it just gets worse

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

ANOTHER LIE I DIDNT LOSE AT ALL I AM STILL A FUCKING 42KG FAT PIG AND DID NOT KMS I TURNED 18 AND NOW I AM TOO OLD AND FAT AND UGLY I PROMISED MYSELF I WILL NEVER LET MYSELF LIVE TO BE THIS OLD FUCK FUCK FUXKKK WHY DIDNT I KMS WHEN I WAS 31KG ATLEAST I WOULD DIE SKINNY AND YOUNG

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

idc about my lw anymore i was so miserable but if i won't be 38kg by my birthday I'm genuinely going to kms

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

you fucking big fat liar obese bitch you didn't lock in not even a little all you did was eating like a pig and maintaining this disgusting fat body!!!!!!!! i might delete this account do i even have ed atp...

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

i said i will be more active because i am doing better now but nvm im doing so much worse but i must be active im so fucking fat i need to be accountable and lock in finally

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

@limbicangel thank you for always making food polls you're the best!! they always help me distract myself when i need it ໒꒰ྀི ´ ˘ ` ྀི꒱ა

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

@yuria_violin wow i never seen one of these vents as relatable as yours the years are exactly same for me and even the looks

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

i said i will be more active because i am doing better now but nvm im doing so much worse but i must be active im so fucking fat i need to be accountable and lock in finally

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

i have the worst sleeping habits and i'm stressed all the time and then i'm surprised that i can't lose weight. i'm so stupid!!!!!!! i will try to sleep goodnight (i am 99% sure i won't be able to fall asleep)

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

WTF NOOOOOOOOO WHY IT IS ALMOST 6AM NONONONONONONONINKKNNOOOO i was supposed to fix my sleeping problems but it got worse now i just regularly wake up at 2 - 4 pm and fall asleep at 6 - 8 am or don't sleep at all how do i fix this help it just keeps getting worse

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

@10yuu_u yay can we be moots?? i keep seeing you on tl and you're super cute and i love your art!! i always wanted to compliment u but i was too shy to interact ₍ᐢっ ̫ ʚ̴̶̷̥̀ ᐢ₎ sorry if this is awkward i'm trying to get rid of social anxiety online

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

@Ouppy_Boy ik it's not really about the number, it's about the mindset but still i feel so extremely greedy and fat if i eat over 1000 cals (╥_╥) which happens most of the time because i can barely function when i eat under 1200 so i don't consider myself anorexic at all...

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

@SEAL0VERD0SE i wish i was grateful for being stuck in bmi 15 jail because then i gained to bmi 16... i really need to be more grateful

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

omg im done i feel like my legs are about to fall off HOW DO YALL DO THIS REGULARLY

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

i got 30k steps but i need 10k more but my legs hurt too much and I'm so tired but i have ti do it because i ate so much today i can't do this anymore

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

btw i didn't lie about getting 30k steps, i was tired and forgot about posting it, sadly i was also too tired to get enough steps and few days after this i got under 10k ... but today i will try to get 40k!! (ᐡ•͈ ·̫ •͈ᐡ )

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

the way i just devoured 900 cals in one sitting because I'm a greedy fatass... (⇀‸↼‶) but it's ok cuz I'm so full and i definitely won't want any more food today so it's just an unplanned big omad and i will get 30k steps so i will definitely lose weight ദ്ദി(˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

wtf i was in pain because i was really hungry so i made a super yummy breakfast but it made me sick before i could finish it and now im trying to not throw it up.. it was supposed to make me feel better and give me energy but now i feel 1000x more horrible (╥_╥)

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

i rlly want to dress up but i have no energy 99% of the time and if i do i feel too fat n disgusting to be allowed to wear cute clothes.. ՞߹ - ߹՞ i wanna join jiraitwt so bad i wanted to join for more than a year but i'm too ugly n depressed while everyone there is too perfect...

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

ughhhh how do i stop online social anxiety???!!! everyone is too intimidating to me you're all too cute or too cool and i feel insecure and can't even like a post...... but now im going to try to like everything i like or agree with!

[riri ૮ › ༝ ‹ ྀིა shedtwt! @chocostrwberri]

I hope all my moots are doing better.. even though nobody interacts w me i feel bad for not checking on you.. ૮꒰◞ ˕ ◟ ྀི꒱ა if you're in recovery now or don't want to see shed stuff (if i post sh i will censor) u can block or sb me or if you find me annoying its ok too!