@jamesflandersIV mind you before this scene ulf is sitting on rhaenyra's seat, acting like a king, mocking jace and implying he's a bastard. and in the dinner scene, he's being disrespectful towards rhaenyra, disrupting her and shit.
jace would rather lose the war and die than give up any more symbols of his legitimacy. desperately begging his mother to PLEASE let him keep this privilege, his pride, his last marker of targaryen-isim, bc he is so deeply ashamed of what he KNOWS he is, what SHE made him