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#josh

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Living like #josh

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Need to go back to Montreal

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God just sent me a ghost nut

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Could I sustain both? Have I grown enough to handle confidence and discipline? I don’t know honestly

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Like I’d genuinely rather lose all the confidence I’ve built up this past 8 months in exchange for the discipline I had when I was at my wits end mentally at least

[chopsuey @chopsuey2005]

I used to actually have discipline… I think (I know so) the lack there of has been my down fall

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Now how do I hold onto this surge of motivation like how do I actually implement this into my real everyday life instead of it dying down in the next hour

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IGHT imma hold myself to this, no masturbation, no sugary shit, no more n word, I have to do something Chop suey related everyday #STAMPED

[chopsuey @chopsuey2005]

This was my absolute peak because I was so deadass ab this

[chopsuey @chopsuey2005]

no more women, going full monk
chop suey only

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I mourn who I once was

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Hate that there’s absolutely nothing that can make me dislike that one mf

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I really got to the “I hate my bitch” stage wit these mfs lmao

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Like I’m not saying I’m this very serious person who takes nothing lightly but like a balance would be nice Im a person bro I get sad, I get mad, i get jolly, I fuck around, I just want to be heard

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I care about people’s perception of me because they’ll interact with me based on their perception so like for example because I’m perceived as a joke by some people so theyll only approach me on some bullshit and I fucking hate that, that’s why I don’t do short form no more

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Like I wanna be able to speak on shit that’s on my mind like this and “supporters” you could say would actually hear me out instead of responding with shit like “chop the thinker” like I’m cool with randoms bullshitting me idc but don’t say you fw wit me if you gon disregard ts

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My opp helped me get over an unhealthy obsession #hateyou

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I remember you was conflicted