I'm not going to write a hook. I shouldn't need to convince you to read what resonates.
I've decided to cancel my X premium subscription. And do some soul searching about what role social media should play in my life.
But before that, one more long post.
I was sold (and willingly bought) into the idea that social media could be the game changing vehicle to realize my dreams of financial abundance.
I've been sold (and willingly bought) that type of idea before. When it was SEO, ebooks, forex trading, courses, high ticket coaching, and many more.
And this relationship with all these vehicles has become toxic over time.
Well intentioned people sharing their wins have been pissing me off. Especially triggering as of late has been the idea that money making is easy, that 10xing your income can be a breeze. That you can attract high paying clients effortlessly.
And everyone, whether they like it or not is being trained to use the most psychologically addictive tactics just to get seen.
I've spent years becoming a VERY good coach, regularly creating transformations even when I'm not trying and we're just showing up to have a conversation.
And I know that the idea that you can turn your life around in 90 days (or whatever time period) is possible, for sure.
And it's ALSO possible that your spiritual path won't include abundance in the surface way you think and will instead include YEARS of unglamorous hard inner work. BOTH are true.
Yet only one truth gets amplified on these platforms. Meanwhile, truly life changing stuff gets put out there to crickets, all because I'm not playing by the rules.
Though you trigger the F out of me, I don't hate you if you've learned to play the game well. Good on you for creating 20k months, digital leverage, disruptive what have you.
But I hate the game.
I hate that so much of our potential is locked within these confines. I hate that in order for me to justify my right to live, I need to learn how to "package" my raw creative energy as "content" and "sell" it to enough people.
And that the stickiest content is about that very process of packaging content, and selling. Creating an inevitable pyramid scheme of extractive energy.
And I hate that I feel crazy for thinking this is an absurd scenario. And that I just need to "fall in line" with every one else who has found a way to be good players.
I need to niche down, or up, find my ideal client, sell them a dream (that may or may not come true - but who really cares), trumpet only the high points (and some strategic lows). Convince, persuade, activate, trigger, sell. ALWAYS be selling.
Sure, connect and transform, but only as much as necessary and certainly don't do it in a way that would fundamentally CHANGE the rules of the game. If that's your intention, then no one wants to hear you.
I don't know about you, but despite the freedom that can come from this, I don't want to live in a world where THIS is the ideal. That is squid-game-level dystopic.
I want to live in a world where everyone is taken care of, where no one has to justify their right to live - let alone thrive - to a capitalist system. And that's to start.
I want to live in a world where our individual genius is honored and valued, where the systems WE build work FOR us. Where our collective sovereignty is understood from the micro to the macro.
And I've been living with this story that this vehicle of social media is simply a means to that end. Just show up and grind out content until you build a following, and monetize, and then you'll be free.
I have judged myself for being "too sensitive" and "not disciplined" for long enough.
Because I know this - if the means suck, so too will the end. So, I've been tinkering with all kinds of ways to keep my energetic integrity while engaging in a fundamentally un-integrious system - and I'm not sure I can. I'm not sure anyone really can without leading to some exploitative energy somewhere in the supply chain.
And I recognize that social media, like any vehicle, CAN be used for good. In fact, I've met some amazing people on here.
Have any of them paid me a million dollars? No. But they have led to great connecting, creating and personal transformation. AKA the things that people REALLY want, assuming they didn't have a gun to their head that repeated the mantra of, "Make money, be productive," etc.
But honestly, I never was good at the game. I was just conditioned to think I needed to get good at it. Now I'm exploring what it means to play a game I truly love. Consider this your wake-up call if you feel like something is energetically off here.
We can do A LOT lot better.
And I'm starting by taking social media off a pedestal.
@NikHuno Rest is definitely rebellion. The productivity wheel makes you question the system less. Rest automatically deconditions you from it. Add in nature and the feeling compounds.
@Emmijen Haha, it does feel like an archetypal shit test. Where we're going (Neptune in Aries, Pluto in Aquarius), only true leaders that want collective sovereignty for all beings need apply.
@libramoongal My moon, sun, mercury, and mars are all domiciled and ascendant ruler (venus) is decently placed, but I'm a hot cosmic mess. Maybe because my Jupiter is in fall or b/c Pluto is chillin in my first house.
@libramoongal 12H mercury virgo here, cosign this. I call it a galaxy brain - able to perceive and process many dimensions of reality - or possible divergent realities - at once. Uncalibrated, it feels completely unmoored from reality (leading to madness) Used wisely, it's a superpower.
@astropriestesss Most things you write sounds like you're talking about me. When I didn't know anything about astro - I assumed most things were based on my Sun sign (Leo) But it never felt like the whole picture. The more I learn / older I get, my Cancer Midheaven defines much of my life.
@astropriestesss writing that is worth reading is "too much" tell me something that makes me confront and illuminate, not what I want to hear (Pluto in 1st house + libra rising lol)
@astropriestesss Mercury 12h here (in Virgo no less, so double Mercury energy), yep. No one's thinking process can hide from being seen when I'm guiding them haha.
@astropriestesss It's me - Pluto in my first house just having finished my pluto square at the beginning of this year. In addition to everything you said, it's like a volcanic, recurring mid life crisis compressed into 18 months