tried using a body visualizer because i genuinely cannot see my body for what it is and that is just an average dude lmao what the hell, i am the most average looking dude ever
push everyone away. make them all hate you. you know you want to. you know its for the best. noone will be hurt by your passing if you make them all hate you now.
i feel like absolute shit. planning to meet up with friends on christmas break and next month when i dont even know if i wont try to kill myself before the end of august.