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30, still here, gw 120
5'11" MDNI

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tw, im talkin about my scar and sh
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looking back and realizing why the dr asked if this cut was an attempt 😳

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god i hate when a woman is evil and makes me side with the man (it's my ex gf and bf)

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just watched a video of a guy doing 10 99 shots and my mouth started watering what is wrong with me

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like since august she's been wearing leggings and long sleeves under her clothes

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my coworker is sooooooo skinny it makes me SICK. like i can see her cheekbones and she drinks protein shakes and only eats like candy or chips...... is she one of us

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i never hit my goal of 125lbs, i went to treatment at 138 so im gonna try again :)

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i dropped 5lbs of water weight in 2 days lol hell yeah

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yes im a woman of color why do you ask

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i know im not drinking and self harming every day like i used to, that doesnt mean im not struggling, and i wish i didnt have to prove myself

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i have a short torso and hip dips and that means if im not skin draped over bones i am misshapen and ugly :)

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i actually just wanna cry and rip all the skin and fat off my body 😃 but i have to go to work

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@dietstrawbari thank youuuuuuu 🫶🏽

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checking in, 171 lbs this morning 🤢

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holy fuck

[via @violentvia]

so soooo sorry to all the people i dont feel like it

[star @glossdiet]

relapsing into your younger ana habits isn’t feasible when you’re an adult i almost fainted twice today girl you’re 23 stand the fuck up

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i purged twice yesterday while he was at work. idk why a switch flipped but i am actually so locked the fuck back in

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weighed 169lbs this morning so i said "i need to lose 40lbs" to my bf and he goes "FORTY??!!?!?! you'd be nothing!!!!!!" and im like ? yes exactly?

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everyone clowning ariana for acting childish, but i get her 🥺🫂

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i know ppl dont see me as white because no one takes my pain seriously