is it better to speak or to die? speak. dying is inevitable anyways — so speak up. speak your mind. speak it to existence. nobody knows you as much as yourself and hence nobody will speak for you the way your mind needs to be spoken for. so speak, speak, speak.
"i'm not obsessed with sex... just can't stop thinking about it. The performance of it... the awkwardness of it... the drama of it. The moment you realise someone wants your body... Not so much the feeling of it." - Phoebe Waller-Bridge scene from Fleabag