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Aaaaaaaàa

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Thinking of sweating bullets. Sweating bullets I love you. Stupid ass DID song

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When I was getting ready to go out this morning I was getting passive influenced to wear formal attire . Like Ur literally never gonna come out you've been out 3 times and you have social anxiety.

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I wasn't exactly nice to them all so I hope that me enjoying the company of a fictive might encourage someone or at least some fragments out of dormancy and stuff. Not that I'm using him for that I would be happy with him regardless.

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the only other alter who has consistent positive triggers besides me is 2cave so we've just been sharing the body in the last few days. It's probably the first time that I've had a self state I'm in tune with.

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Our partner suggested I should focus on being a person and not a purpose but when faced with the threat of nonexistence we all get a little nervous.

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I have unpacked and sorted all of my clothing finally, which had me a little scared considering that was the reason I existed, but now I'm planning to manage our time and money.

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This is more to remind myself

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The last me was a people pleaser and refused to do anything and let it rip him in half

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No I'm not

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My alters are so boring man let me say what I wanna say. When you're pushing 30 and all the people defending you are 10 years younger than you. There's this thing called maturity you're supposed to have. I was so happy to hear she'd changed I didn't know it was for the worse

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Ok I'm happy now

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@roseinstall Most of my old relationships were just me hyperfixating on a person so I can relate. Kinda just didn't know I still had it in me

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When Ur mood depends on her not being upset is that like a good or bad thing

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She loves you dude she's just hypersensitive to us switching

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I thought he was the guy made to not exhibit the autistic traits but turns out he's the guy that exhibits the personality disorder traits which is kind of funny if you're me

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She acts like I'm a hostile and it breaks my heart.

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@roseinstall Your memory must be so continuous. I say that but I don't even remember half of when I front even if I am having a clear day

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I'm bored how do you give up the body