It’s so hard to not rely on caffeine anymore, it’s a seizure trigger 🥲🥺. I have to prioritize good sleep hygiene, which is actually a good thing….but an iced shaken espresso would hit in the AM
I don’t even know what to do with my hair anymore lmfaoooo, I want to chop it but then idk. I can’t even blame anyone lol that’s a chapter I never want to reread or touch.
But fr do you know how heartbreaking it is to not even recognize yourself when you look in the mirror?? Everything about yourself is gone, spark gone. Eyes just look empty, just completely broken. You don’t even know what you like anymore.
Real eaters don’t talk about how good they shit is, tbh they don’t even talk about being an eater. That shit made me cry it was so good lmfaoooo. It’s not a competition, they just pay attention to you 🥹
I couldn’t even recognize myself when I left, that broke my heart. She was so dysregulated and exhausted. I gotta do better moving forward. I had to hit rock bottom, it’s the only way to grow from here.
I had a breakthrough today, it really do be these phones. But seriously leaving was the best thing for me, I was scared af of everything. But I really need to be to myself for a while, it’s some shit I gotta stop doing and I needed to check myself so I can have something healthy.