I used to work at a used record store and one time a guy came in to sell a shit load of Morrissey and Smiths CDs (which we happily bought) and after he left I turned to my boss and went ??? and he was like "Oh yeah, he broke up with Morrissey, happens all the time."
Thursday: Moon void in Capricorn in Aquarius 6:46am PDT. A co-creative phase out in the community these days after the Full Moon. This is emphasized by the โ๏ธ๐. Catch the inner guidance and be inspired into brilliance.
Walking past another woman on the street and exchanging a warm, heartfelt smile is one of the best feelings, personally.
Experiencing a brief moment of implicit sisterhood that feels deeply familiar to the soul completely erases any jealousy, rejection, or conditioning you've ever absorbed about other women.
In one small moment, it undoes everything the world has tried to put between us.
I love breathing life into one another as a way of life. In the small moments. Any chance you get. And I especially love it when it's mutual and selfless. Human recognition is a small but meaningful act of affection and love that we give to one another.
Kurt was a boy living in the St Vincent Home for Children in Freeport, Illinois. He illustrated this cookbook that the sisters organized. I wonder how his life turned out.
I think one of the biggest ways we betray ourselves, in the context of healing, is rejecting the many expressions of it and suppressing them.
Like you can be crying to the point of nearly feeling like you could convulse and all you think is "what's wrong with me," instead of just letting the body complete the release.
And then you can be laughing hysterically after just crying and think "this is embarrassing" or "manic," instead of just knowing it's also release and simultaneously your natural state after releasing the burden of pain.
So many things are like this, I could talk about it all day. But the somatic aspect of healing is more foundational than the mental. It's like tending to your garden. You could never just think your way into a thriving garden without taking any action.
So much of healing is truly just releasing the pain and more often than not, that looks psychotic, manic, unhinged, embarrassing and anything you want to call it โ just chaotic. Let it be that anyway. Don't reject it. Don't suppress it. Let it come out and leave you.
That is true healing: the somatic release, when the substance of the pain actually leaves your body, so it can no longer hold any authority over it (you).