atleast thats a bit of a nice relief breath, i mean ive been holding it in from anyone for the longest time, now i know that im living with an actual bomb clock counting down at the very least
put it simply idk if this is just a tumor sucking away every weight of me or an asymptomatic progression of cancer that will just end me one day, im already too busy trying to eat with the little money we have, i dont have time to think of me dying from stupid worse luck...
i mean financially my family is already "drinking blood" at this point, theres not a chance of me getting this checked, which is why i already accepted that if this somehow "kills" me, i want atleast me and my family to not die from starvation...