"Because you have the demeanor of a man with burden of leadership and how to use his power in a conscientious way. And I wondered how do you deal with the loneliness that comes with being a leader." What. A. Question.
Namjoon talking about how he felt during making his album Right place, Wrong Person.
🐨: Yeah, that's my favorite album so far because that's my most recent album. But, uh, thanks for noticing, by the way.
👤:It's so beautiful, the photographs. You... sorry to interrupt you, Carrie.(they started talking at the same time😭)
🐨: Uh, I was really trying to get away from where I was because just by the excuse of that I'm too busy just doing my role and um doing all those schedules. I just realized that uh I'm too lazy these days for digging stuff and studying all those great um art world outside. And when I was working on the album right before the military, I just tried to get away as far as could.
Namjoon talking about how Taehyung first took him to museum in 2018 and after that he has had passion for it.
🐨: I was in 2018. I was really, really bored and I got nothing to do. I didn't know anything except like shopping or playing games in the room. So just it just suddenly popped up and uh the a member of the team called V just proposed me like why don't we go to a museum and I was like a museum? I am not a museum guy and [laughter] isn't it just boring just just to go there and but we just went there uh because we got nothing to do and I saw the uh the paintings of Monae and Van Gone Sarah and of course I I knew the names of them because saw them uh and in the book when I was in school. So, but it was literally the first time to just have a like physically to have a chance to look at their actual um paintings. And um I think impressionism is is still the biggest uh the most widest open entrance for all of the outside people uh in the art in the art world. Yeah. So, Monet and G and S, they opened me the entrance and um as I got into it like further and
further more and more, I just my taste um became a little bit more of a complex and uh complicated. So, yeah. Um, yeah. That's how I just got into it.
"...when i was in my 20s i thought that i should have an edge, but as time passed by, i got to realise that a human being can be.. its so much of a complex and it was all about the contradictions about how much should I reveal to the public or how much should i hide"
“Bro, please chill out”😭
🐨: So my self-discipline is just always about those two things like,
“Am I controlling myself too much?”
“No, it's okay. You could chill out. It’s been 15 years, you always waited for this moment”
“No, the world is flowing too fast, you have to push it more”
“No, you have to chill out. Bro, please chill out!”
Namjoon about hiding or revealing identity🥹
🐨: I’d describe it as a life of an undercover. It’s like you be a thief in night and act like a police officer in the daytime. And I think I had a tough time for long to just admit it because when I was in my 20s I thought that I should have a like an edge and I should be defined and described as just like a one edge. But as time passed by and I got to realize that that a human being and an identity could be, really, it's always like so much of a complex and complicated. And it was all about the contradictions and dualities.
🐨: So I'm still fighting with all those contradictions that how much should I reveal myself to the others, to the public? Or how much should I hide my privacy? 🐨: I'm still figuring out what to show and what to hide.
🐨: But I think the best way to reveal your real, real things is the art itself. For me it's music. So I'm trying to reveal my bad things and demons I want to spit out as music.
What I love most about Clarice Lispector's writing is that she doesn't pretend to befriend language. She very openly and ferociously tries to defy it. She battles with ways of overcoming the very thing that's giving shape to The Thing. I find that very authentic
Namjoon talking about how friends mean so much to him, but wishes to be able to do things on his own too.
🐨: I don't like myself sometimes um when I'm when I feel like I'm too obsessed with the relationships. Like I always ask myself like, could you just please be on your own for a second?
Why do you always need somebody to talk to or to go for a trip? Just could you just let yourself be alone um for like a week? And because I felt I sometimes feel I mostly feel really hard to be just do nothing and just be on my own. So, but friends um I think sometimes they're everything.