Instead of saying, "I'd never commit that sin" say “may Allah never test me with it”. We should never be too sure of ourselves, so it is better to ask Allah to keep you away from it
it's all about Qadr, don't feed your heart with unnecessary anxiety , live your life at peace , knowing that " what's meant for you will reach you , even if it's beneath two mountains and what's not meant for you will miss you , even if it's between your two lips".
Allah is planning for you better than you plan for yourself. Allah knows you find it hard to accept what's going on. He knows that you are in need of comfort. He knows what is bothering you these days. Don’t give up on your Dua's. Soon He will give you what you want In Sha Allah.
I just want to thank Allah, like for everything. Despite the heaps of sin upon my back, He always saved me. And I don’t know why. I don’t get why. There’s literally nothing special about me. But still I feel He plans in my favour. I would one day, like to see what He sees in me.