𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲

18 | 𝙛𝙚𝙢𝙗𝙤𝙮 | 𝙗𝙥𝙙 𝙘𝙖𝙩𝙗𝙤𝙮 𝙡𝙖𝙧𝙥 | 𝙨𝙛𝙬

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

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[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

i just don't really know how to move forward no matter how hard i try figure it out

you'd think with nothing you'd sorta be on a fresh start

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

and the problem is i think just because i have no control
just because im lonely and just because im not well right now i deserve a another chance

i don't know why i do one literally told me to kms and actively hates me

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

this really is the worst period of my life so far

no friends
mentally fucked
hated
lost
angry

and coming to terms that i have no real friends has been so hard

because i don't know what to do

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

and i still can't comprehend how fast it all happened while feeling like years

especially becoming nobody to somebody i never thought i'd lose

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

and i still can't comprehend how fast it all happened while feeling like years

especially becoming nobody to somebody i never thought i'd lose

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

the worst of it i still do the unhealthy behaviour he tried stopping because i feel like im suffocating without it

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

like i still think the same stuff and feel the same emotions

im just not enabling them to get worse

and another thing is i hate people praising me for this stuff i don't feel comfortable about it

there is one person i like hearing it from but that ship has sailed sadly

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

like i still think the same stuff and feel the same emotions

im just not enabling them to get worse

and another thing is i hate people praising me for this stuff i don't feel comfortable about it

there is one person i like hearing it from but that ship has sailed sadly

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

like i do feel like i've taken a step in the right direction but it shouldn't be anything to cheer over

what might be big to me is relatively small to others so i need to get to a stage where it's big

this might take a month or two or even a few

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

i don't like thinkin "im getting better" because i know by getting too comfortable with not constantly controlling myself ill revert back to the way i was somehow

all it takes is one split or breakdown to make me go back because it's only been 44 hours not 2 weeks

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

i don't like thinkin "im getting better" because i know by getting too comfortable with not constantly controlling myself ill revert back to the way i was somehow

all it takes is one split or breakdown to make me go back because it's only been 44 hours not 2 weeks

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

i hate seeing people who go "i want to my arms to look like this" and its a sh image like clearly u dont because u havent done it yet lol

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

i listened to the principles behind a song i like and some stuff has gotten easier

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

watching top gear

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

doing stuff on my own sucks sigh

i need to try force myself to open up more

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

i hate my heart beats fast and loud

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

having to use this but it’s wtv

i hope he’s proud dude because this all has been so hard

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

24 hours now
not since before did was i able to do this
it seems like nothing to other the bare minimum even but its been hard for me

the uncertainty

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

hey ahaha

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

i love sending vm instead of messaging

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

sometimes i wait for people to give me attention like a dog

[𝐜𝐦𝐳𝐲 @cmzyXD]

where is the hot dudes who are slightly manipulative but fun to talk to

it’s like they went extinct