An abuser literally stealing the light from inside you and gleefully destroying it in a way that permanently cuts you off from who you used to be is a HECK of an allegory btw
I hate when I pay for things in advance for friends and I tell them “ don’t worry about paying me back, my treat” and then they insist on paying me back excessively then never pay me back. Like I told you don’t worry about it but now that you insisted I’m expecting you to pay me
Should I spend all my money at the convention or should I save it and transfer it all to my mom and sibling. I just need to hang on for one more week, one more and maybe then I can rest.