i wish things were different. i wish things mattered and sufficient visible change was prominent. stagnancy is crawling under my skin and i think it’s starting to bite.
im tired of putting in ANY effort even if it’s “the right thing to do” or “it’s good for me” fuck that fuck everybody i love me like no one will and idc if i ruin myself doin that
moving on to one harm to another. any time i feel like doing something that might harm someone else, i will harm myself instead. then i will learn. and i will treat myself like a person.
do not fucking hit me up when you’re out of jail and expect me to give on you ducking piece of shit you had your chance all you had to do was pick up the fucking phone you fucking brain dead stupid methhead dumbass
FUCK UOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU I TRIED SO HARD IM STILL TRYING AND FOR WHAT FOR YOU TO FUCKING PLAY ME AMD GET WHAT YOU WANT BC I CANT DESIST I FUCKING HATE YOU I LOVE YOU O WIDH YOU FODNT TREST ME LIKE YHID
i don’t know why people automatically think less of you for struggling and not dealing with it well. obviously i know it’s not a good thing but like,, let me learn my lesson if it’s not gonna hurt you. it doesn’t feel like concern when they put you down for feeling that way
only come 2 this account when im really close to giving up again. tired of justifying and trying to reason w myself on why i like to post my feelings anonymously to a void and just letting it be what i need it to be rn. tired of sorting myself out.