idk if anyone cares but long trauma rant and message of hope to anyone suffering and goodbye
i know this is all my own doing, i know i’m retarded selfish stupid etc etc and provably didnt deserve the money for acting that retarded, gen not asking for pity so like dont slam me in the comments 😊
honest 2 god miracle i’m alive , didn’t think id make it through. finally quit this evil cancerp space.
Gl and thank u to all the people that was so goated to me , so many of youse there were, i made some insane memories and spent time in communities where i felt like i was part of a family. shitcoins has been the majroity of my whole life since 2023 , i dont remember what life felt like before i was in the space. i’ll still def he keeping in touch with mfs from phocaine and kendu here n there and others sorry if i cant rmb cos yall are fucken goated
anyone else suffering from rt’ing or blowing their port - it gets better.
im finally over my multi 7tig rt after a year. i quit for good and had some money cashed out.
but i was still intensely depressed after rt, progressively got worse by the day everyday for so long, for over a year straight lost my girl cos of it . i cant remember big periods of time
went psycho after that blew it all on drugs and shitcoins and i barely even remember it. i used to hate drugs. i wanted to die for so long and it never got better only worse . tldr/what i’m tryna; i went thru it. i went thru it bad and i see so many people go down my route on my TL and attempt , to them: I’m finally in a much better place and you will be to even if it seems like u are gonna carry this baggage forever.
Obviously still have alot of mental baggage to work through but finally i have the motivation to try and better which is something depressed people lose
i’m sober now from the wok and the 30’s hopefully totally soon one day ;-; words of advice: quit if ur about to blow ur port and come back when ur better :) and beware of ur vices
ik i’ll make it back eventually so i’m not worried , just cant shitcoin right now,
i’m not in a good mental space to keep myself disciplined enough for this hypergambling bs might come back one day cos i used to be goated man
if u know me irl please pretend u never read this (not sure if the 3ppl irl with my twitter would stalk me but maybe)- but i fr dont want ppl to talk to me about it or to have anyone close to me know about this because these are deep dark personal secrets!
stay goated twins, i love you all.
mfs wonder why they cant catch anything when this is what their trenching chats look like at peak intellectual capability
jus playin @Phocaine_ fnf supremacy