yk even though it lowkey feels like im dying I kinda wanna get touched non consentually, you think the negative feelings are attached to arousal? either way I hope I die soon lolol
i hate that i want credit for not killing myself. i hate that iwant credit for not being need to be hospitalized. i hate that i want credit for every time i have stopped myself from throwing my body into traffic. i hate that people on here have told me im stupid for being upset
things I wanna do w my little
things I plan to do with my little
things my little n I did today
SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP
DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE
...
(im j jelly my cg doesnt plan things for me </3 he prolly dont even wanna be my cg anymore lol)
yaknow. it knew it was going to be like this.
why cant I get it through my head it will ALWAYS be like this?
I cant even be disappointed..bc a part of me alr knew.
im j never going to be worth it.
I guess it dossnt really matter though. any comfort people offer is j fake anyways.
nobody is ever who I think they are. im always wrong.
my judgements broken and id be better iff alone.
I hate that the convos never finish. its not fair. its never fair.
its my fault for wanting one. I should know better by now. no time is ever a good time. I can never be sad at a convient time.
..it also hurts nobody ever offers to see me. nobody wants to comfort me. nobody..