You won’t be okay
Your chest will burn, your heart will skip on intervals, you will cry to the point of trying to catch your breath. You will question yourself, lose yourself. You won’t be okay and life doesn’t wait for you to be okay so you keep living, regardless.
You’ll try to leave multiple times, most times you will go back, and then finally one day you find one small reason to be gone forever. It’ll be the first time in a long time you feel free.
when he doesn't understand that if we stop talking I will still have no roster, stay celibate, and continue to be alone until God sends me someone worth loving me
i think about being a mom all the time. i just don't know if i'll ever find someone who makes me feel safe enough to take that leap. i wish women could have babies on their own.
baby, just initiate. i'm overly willing to reciprocate. i just don't want to be the one making everything happen all the time. i love a man who initiates.
The real pain isn’t the lesson
It’s the fact the universe had to teach me this lesson with the man I truly loved and was willing to spend the rest of my life with.
I return kindness and effort tenfold. Anyone who helps me, considers me, or makes my life easier, in the biggest or smallest of ways, I give my absolute best to. It's my pleasure.