lala ౨ৎ

20↑ | 🪞🦖🔪 | DNF w/o consent! :b | all my yumes are non sharing. ♡

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

ill get pissed of one day and just gatekeep them all im really strict with my boundaries they are MY!! children

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

what's the point of having boundaries if everyone just ignores them you guys dont care about my ocs at all

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

hai everyone my name is lala loopsy

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

it aches to keep repeating that this is the best for both of them, because deep down, it is a reality she never wanted to face.

ans like yeah i need to stop listening to daniel caesar LOL!!!

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

i hope i dont sound like im forcing things but ☂️ still thinks about 💉, constantly. she wonders if leaving everything and the person she loved so deeply over a single fight was truly the right choice, or if it was just selfish. guilt consumes her as she blames herself for how-

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

been a wonderful father, and their life could have been beautiful. and he would take her to beach again, the place she loved the most because her first memories of it had him in it.

​instead, she forces herself to accept that good things eventually come to an end.

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

missing, and i can't even remember what it was.

and it makes me feel horrible. it feels so deeply ungrateful to believe something is missing from my perfect life.

mother, i am sorry. i am so, so sorry. you gave me a paradise, but if nothing is truly missing... why do i weep?

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

🩰

maybe i am ungrateful. my mother saved me. she gave me a home and a mother's love, and i wouldn't be who i am today without her.

i was rescued; i am blessed.

yet it still hurts. every time it aches, i can't help but cry. as if something vital used to be there, but now it's-

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

she likes the atmosphere ❤️ (she likes poison picnic and slingshot)

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

the concept of tutu punya hobi cafe hoping but all she ever orders is just black coffee or tea 😭😭😭 girl what are you doing

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

☂️: of course not! you just felt like I should know (mata kedip kedip)

y semangat lh 🎯 bc 🩰 cwk bingung dan sekarang mamahnya udah tau abt the thing you have going on!!! i think thieves rest should start serving scones bc that's ☂️ favorite mungkin km dimodalin jugak nanti

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

🩰: annoying. they talk too much, they keep giving me sweets I didn't order, and they treat it so seriously
☂️: what do you mean by that?
🩰: they want me to like the dessert
☂️: thats hard no? you don't eat sweets
🩰: but they made it so i dont feel bad when i eat them

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

🩰: i like their ice coffee
☂️: right. and how long have you been going there?
🩰: a few weeks
☂️: i see. well, i think it’s lovely that you found a place you like. And someone who takes care of you, even if it’s through annoying sweet treats.
🩰: i didn't say i liked them

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

☂️: mhm... if so why are you telling me this
🩰: i just feel like you should know
​☂️: you’re not the type to update me on such things. what’s their name?
​🩰: Slingshot.
​☂️: Slingshot. and what are they like?

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

🩰 is not good at expressing herself, moreover understanding her feelings. jadi waktu dia cerita tuh kayak

🩰: ive been talking to someone
☂️: okay, tell me more
🩰: there's nothing much to tell. they run a cafe i go to, nothing special about it

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

i think ☂️ got really excited when 🩰 brought up 🎯 for the first time

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

rather than drinking. which lowkey makes her a really good friend to bring to a bar or club because she will always be sober, tapi dia gabakal mau sih unless she values and cares about that person

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

BUT really clingy she won't say a lot tapi dia pengennya nempel terus (a bit whiny maybe)

🩰 she does not drink. Like At All. she thinks that alcohol tastes bad and i dont think someone could ever convince her otherwise. she rather eat sweets and feel bad about it after

[lala ౨ৎ @coeurdelala]

fomo

☂️ drinks occasionally like in formal events atau kalo dia lagi pengen aja. she can hold her liquor and im saying like Its Really Hard for her to get drunk AND IT DRIVES HER CRAZY!!! but when she does get tipsy, rather than her usual talkative self she gets really quiet