seeing my brother always being unconcerned, unbothered, joyful, simply being a normal kid is such a weird feeling.. I am really happy for him but at the same time this makes me realise how fucked up my childhood was.
I've been eating too much for the past few fays.. I'm with my family so I can't really do something. and I know that tomorrow won't be better because my grandma is cooking. fuck I wanna cry.