dearly beloved

This place could be beautiful, right?

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

… but It Cannot Be A Mistake to have cared … It Cannot Be An Error to have tried … It Cannot Be Incorrect to have loved

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

YOU, WHO IS STANDING BY MY GRAVE; DON'T LOOK SO SHOCKED BY THIS SIGHT. YESTERDAY I WAS JUST LIKE YOU, AND TOMORROW YOU WILL BE JUST LIKE ME.

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

Let me say it plain: I loved someone and I failed at it. Let me say it another way: I like to call myself wound but I will answer to knife. Sometimes I think we have the same name, Notquitelove.

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

I love you. You're my best friend. Come and we'll get married, and we'll live in a house together

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

Memory blurs, that’s the point. If memory didn’t blur you wouldn’t have the fool’s courage to do things again, again, again, that tear you apart.

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

I hope it's love. I'm trying really hard to make it love.

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

This haunting was a gift. You did not ask for it, but here it is, and wrapped so nicely. It would be rude to take it back. Maybe you can find a use for it.

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

Jessica has a forehead scar from the deep end of a pool. I ask Jessica what drowning feels like and she says not everything feels like something else.

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

A BOY RISES FROM THE DEAD THINGS.

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

I carried my fear of the world the way an animal carries a kill in its jaws but in reverse: I was the kill, the gift. Whose feet would I be left at?

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

This isn't about love as in caring. This is about property as in ownership.

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

I told him that I'd turned into a ghost; or maybe that I was the only living girl in a city of ghosts; that, in any case, I didn't feel like dying all the time.

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

let me stay tender-hearted, despite, despite, despite

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

I'm coming out as someone who loves things unevenly, my theologies strewn out in the dark, this iPhone an almost oracle.

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

Today, I forgot what it was I went looking for, my own face, or the shape of something I should love.

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

> I need you to know that I am getting good at being patient but I also need you to know that this is really hard.
> If it's possible to get back to me any sooner, I need you to do that.

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

Always falling into a hole, then saying "ok, this is not your grave, get out of this hole," getting out of the hole which is not the grave, falling into a hole again, saying "ok, this is also not your grave, get out of this hole,"

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

I love you like my calloused hands from years of work, I love you like my clay caked nails and paint stained jeans.

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

Home is everything you can walk to.

[dearly beloved @coldfallout]

Hello darling, sorry about that. Sorry about the bony elbows, sorry we lived here, sorry about the scene at the bottom of the stairs and how I ruined everything by saying it out loud.