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lil twt diary | 21 | fatphobes n' shtwt dni | 18+ | ♡ them/they

[omi @coldshowerrs]

accountability ~

[omi @coldshowerrs]

But now i have to relearn how to walk

[omi @coldshowerrs]

Had a car accident and just woke up after a month of being unconscious and i lost 60lbs lmaoooooo

[omi @coldshowerrs]

deadass crying in the break room cause of this STUPID FUCKING FOOD ADDICTION

[omi @coldshowerrs]

no like im supposed to take my first wl shot tomorrow and im scared cause i cant binge on it at fucking all and this extreme hunger or 2 week long binge session IS LIKE KILLING ME ACTUALLY WHY DO I LET FOOD POISON ME

[omi @coldshowerrs]

guys ive been eat 5k cals everyday for like 2 weeks straight 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️ HOW THE FUCK DO I EVEN STOP OMG IM GONNA HAVE A FUCKING PANIC ATTACK I CANT STOP EATING

[omi @coldshowerrs]

guys ive been eat 5k cals everyday for like 2 weeks straight 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️ HOW THE FUCK DO I EVEN STOP OMG IM GONNA HAVE A FUCKING PANIC ATTACK I CANT STOP EATING

[omi @coldshowerrs]

i am absolutely going to abuse this medicine i fear

[yourgirl @dllshx]

To look like this from the back

[saanjh 🔮 @dontcrysaanjh]

ruined my self esteem growing up

[omi @coldshowerrs]

but it wont and i feel miserable so miserable im considering moving back home when i know i shouldnt i just want to go back home cause its easier to not do anything and no other reason im so fucking tired of being a failure this shit fucking sucks

[omi @coldshowerrs]

i feel like hyper aware of everything of the sound of my voice of my body of the hair on my skin and if something touches me i get so irrationally angry and every emotion just feel like so much heavier and i just want them gone i just want to be numb but im not

[omi @coldshowerrs]

im tired of listening to other peoples problems while mine are in my head all day and it only repeats the bad shit always repeats how im not good enough how i cant do anything right how im not worthy of anything i want the little voice in my head that fucking hates me to shut up

[omi @coldshowerrs]

this is gonna be a rant thread cause i think i need to get this out idk

[omi @coldshowerrs]

im having a manic episode fr idk what tf is wrong with me bro

[omi @coldshowerrs]

im about to pretend like its fall all year round i think thats rhe only way i wont kms unfortunately

[omi @coldshowerrs]

MY MAC N CHEESE YESTERDAY HAD 17G OF FIBER THATS WHY IM COOKED BROTHERRRRRR

[omi @coldshowerrs]

BRO IM HAVING A BM FOR THE FIRST TIME AFTER BINGEING EVERYDAY FOR A WEEK AND A HALF AND THIS IS HELLLL OMFG AND IM AT WORK OMFGGGGGGG

[omi @coldshowerrs]

and being fat !!!!

[omi @coldshowerrs]

this last week ive been bingeing everyday and i feel like shit i cant even tell when im full anymore i dont know what that feels like and my chest hurts im so bloated like i actually wanna recover thats how bad this shit is FUCK