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⠀⠀ ⠀ a small startle — his eyes alight with nerves , his pale face flushed with color . a slight struggle — before deflating into the hold .
⠀⠀ ⠀ 〝 . . i'm — i'm sorry . i shouldn't have — stupid decision — i'm sorry . 〞
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⠀⠀ ⠀ it was a quick , stupid decision . one moment , he was smiling at @accuritech , and the next he was leaning forward on the couch , pressing lips to his in a soft , short kiss .
⠀⠀ ⠀ immediate flushing — immediate apologies . turning to leave .
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⠀⠀ ⠀ squinting at him — before moving over and letting himself tap him on the shoulder . silent query in his eyes — asking if he was alright .
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I don't really care about living a long, prosperous life, but it's different when I think of the people around me. I know they care about me and need me, so if I can't live for myself, I'll live for them.
I know it's been a year since they died, and I should be over it by now, but I can't shake this feeling of grief. a part of me is still stuck in that moment they died.
they say lavender softens anxiety, and i wonder whether i can plant a garden so dense in your mind that the knots in your chest unravel and never tighten again.
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⠀⠀ ⠀ a pause in the conversation — and then another tirade of queries .
⠀⠀ ⠀ 〝 ruo — what 𖤠 stop that . don't — stop asking about that , ming - yue . i'm not here for that . 〞
⠀⠀ ⠀ turning to catch iso's stare . a mouthed 'help me' , before he returns —
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⠀⠀ ⠀ 〝 yes — no — no , i haven— ming - yue .ᐟ where did you — . 〞
⠀⠀ ⠀ and so forth . eyes meet iso's for a split second, and there's a small softening to them — before a loud exclamation comes from the device .
⠀⠀ ⠀ 〝 no , i — what 𖤠 〞
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the last time i saw you, the lilacs finally bloomed and the white buds unfurled into the roses they were always destined to be - and i knew by looking at them in their splendour that they would not last forever.