elle

fucked

[elle @conflixtd]

but I keep thinking about how I might not get a senior year and I’ve waited so long to have fun at school and senior year was going to be it and now I’m just unbelievably sad

[elle @conflixtd]

Before this all started I noticed my scars were nearly gone and got so excited

[elle @conflixtd]

ok so it takes ~50 days living at home and being in quarantine brings back the urge to hurt myself

[elle @conflixtd]

in the mood to go through assistive suicide and donate all my organs to people whose lives actually matter

[elle @conflixtd]

I really have nothing to live for huh

[elle @conflixtd]

I really haven’t been in a good place for about two and a half weeks now and it’s just getting worse

[elle @conflixtd]

19 months clean and now I’m thinking about self harming again

[elle @conflixtd]

and while we’re at it I don’t think I’ll ever be qualified/ smart enough for an actual career so that’s cute

[elle @conflixtd]

hi I genuinely feel as though no one will find me appealing enough to have a relationship with haha

[elle @conflixtd]

what are good tips for losing weight besides cocaine

[elle @conflixtd]

ok this time last year I was more fucked up in the head but at least my face was thinner.

[elle @conflixtd]

gonna try and start skipping meals again I look horrendous

[elle @conflixtd]

As of yesterday I am one year clean from self harm 🎉🎉

[elle @conflixtd]

Ya girl is in such a funk like it’s a surprise to anyone

[elle @conflixtd]

I want better

[elle @conflixtd]

I’m so fucking gross

[elle @conflixtd]

My wrists aren’t as boney as they used to be

[elle @conflixtd]

I’m gaining weight

[elle @conflixtd]

I need better for myself and it seems like the odds are almost always against me

[elle @conflixtd]

I literally did absolutely nothing today and I feel disgusting bc it’s like I’ve completely given up on myself my hair is a rats nest and there’s trash and clothes basically spilling out of my room I want out