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28 and still fucking stupid

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i don’t argue w hungry mfers

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now i feel bad for getting upset he literally knows new people make me anxious, it was a show outside of my preferred genre w people i dont know, he didn’t bring me to the bar bc he knows i hate it, & now apparently it’s just US getting food bc he knows ive been stressed :(

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ykw next time i feel upset im gonna set a 3hr timer, go for a run, scream & THEN get mad about it LOL

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i am 🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡

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atp i just gotta invent a 10-step anti crashout checklist bc i shit u not i type all that up, start crying again … only to get a “hey sorry i didn’t reply we went to *insert friends name* show & i kno ur not comfy w new people. but we’re otw to get food ill come get u rn”

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ig im just more sad that the venue/bar/rehearsal space is no more than 10 mins from my place & nobody hmu :( LIKE i get not wanting to pick me up bc i don’t drive but i could LITERALLY walk there

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i feel like i’m not explaining fully what happened or why i’m upset LOL so we cancelled our usual tuesday rehearsal earlier in the week to have it TONIGHT but an hour before rehearsal our guitarist said he couldn’t make it so we called it off

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whole 2 hours later i open ig & see the WHOLE BAND at a bar near the venue INCLUDING our guitar player that said he couldn’t come out 2nite so obvi im a little upset like ive been look forward to rehearsal all week we have some important shows soon

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i don’t even want to make more friends ive genuinely excepted i am not a fun friend to have i just wish i could be alone … not … in my room 24/7 lol

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i’m gonna try & get my license again soon i’m so tired of my life genuinely just being my bedroom

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me @ me: he doesn’t hate u. he literally talked to u this morning about moving in when school starts again. he doesn’t want u to explode. u are over thinking. he probably forgot to reply & knew u don’t even like bar nights anyways

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@heartslockempty it’s funny bc i’ve seen the way he makes plans irl LOL he will have an idea then walk circles around his house & find 3 side quests im Sure that is what happened & he probably left the house w out checking his phone again but i am still a little Sad

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nvm now i’m mad as hell LMAO they went out w out me

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i can’t stop crying i was so badly looking forward to rehearsal & seeing everyone

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i want dinner but i am Still Waiting For A Reply on wether or not we’re going out 🫩🫩🫩

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i kno the norm saying is “don’t weigh urself on ur period” but why my body gain the week Before then once my period Starts i drop weight like crazy ? i try not weigh the week BEFORE bc that pisses me off LMAO