birthday coming up and I still feel like i'm mentally stuck as a child
I don't want to grow old
I don't deserve to grow old
there's literally no one around to acknowledge me,
but I wanted this didn't I?
I can't blame anyone for my self inflicted circumstances
who can I even blame for me treating my problems as something to merely overintellectualize & analyze instead of confronting them?
is it really only the executive dysfunction on my part?
why did I have to be born this way
why did I have to choose to be this way
i am completely fine with not having a support system anywhere
i am completely fucking fine
i don't need human connection or friends or a lover or a anything to sustain me
all I need is comfortable destitution
@kittcalico but do keep in mind it's pretty hard to get your hands on crypto while being a minor because most kyc exchanges require you to be 18+, for that I'd recommended buying crypto off p2p exchanges like bisq, or getting someone of age to buy it for u
@kittcalico in the bible there should be enough information to get you started on learning PGP encryption, paying with crypto, and ensuring decent general opsec & whatnot